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2006-04-12T16:58:00.000+08:00

here i come once agn after neglecting moii blog fer such a loong time! hmm..sch reopens next week.. haven even gotten my things bought..n worst..i m short of cash!! shit..can i get from mum? but like very whatever sia..didn get money from her for 4 months le..haix..how..gt this kind of wanting to be independent de gan jue by not getting money from her... yup.. i hve matured alot...heex

went fer e orientation few days back...it was quite okayx ba...went to poly marina..omg..we have to jump sea lor! kns...fer someone who's scare of heights n cant swim..piangx ehs..but frens all said its actually nth de lorr..aiYa.. wait till then then say laa..practical exam.....sIanx! felt so lucky coz got to noe moii course de ppl during e enrolment..somehow its easier to get into e poly life faster bah..hAhA! Jus wanna score well in my course and further studies to earn bigg bucks in future..yea? lol..mm...hOpe wun die in e practical... :p

loving poly life currently.. all peeps r v happening! i mean majority... err... watever... dmtm (skincare)........DUHZ

had been working full host saturday these 2 weeks...got this host phobia..guest in guest in...piangx ehs..kept buzzing ard my ears kaes..but these two days were e most memorable...8K..although full house but m njoying it...all thanks to fellow station i/c...dining staffs...lurve ya all!!

haven been working for...3 days? jus went to see see ydae..somehow felt like i m jus a passer-by there...hmm..i m back to my student life aGn! okayx.. at least i m not so tong ku as i m in e past...perhaps i can jus go off immediately now.. lolx.. mayb tis is part of life..beautiful things r meant to be remembered instead of holding on to it....ryte? experience a lot during my working days.. nOe how's it is like to be in the company of adults....n serving different strangers every single day...

sIanx..dun feel like working tmr...somemore opening!

2006-03-21T17:20:00.000+08:00

quit...really hates this word. sometimes in this living world, certain things are not within ur control.anyone can read this phrase but not everyone can truely understand how it feels.dun wanna leave so soon..admit tt i cant bear to put all these down...even only for less than 4 mths..but relationships have grown too fast for me to catch..am i being too sentimental or what? too easily attached to things and can hardly put them down to move on in life..work and study..do i really have to give up on one??

at first..when i heard parents wanted me to quit..i really feel like my heart scattered till nth left. i have got a passion for breeks ever since i worked.tts why its really tt hard to let go now.the people..the customers..the job..the shop.. everything esle...it grew to be one of my interest in working there..now..i cant serve customers..cant work with my beloved colleagues..i dunno what to do.. what to think.. people may think aiya..its oni a part time job ma..but i jus cant fang xia! i knew u all worry abt my safety..my studies and me going astray..i noe i noe..all these i understood..but y cant u all ti liang wo de gan shou ? planned to continue working till 2nd semester or so..but now..it seems impossible.. i also dunno how to say to mdm and sir..mayb or really i had feelings for it le.its e first time i say out all my actual feelings to mother.i knew she understood how i felt. i dunno why suddenly..i regretted neglecting her feelings when i work...am i an unfilial daugther? i hope not...at least i didn smoke nor go astray..i jus grew to be more decisive and stubborn on my thinking..i knew what i want in life now.. i want a fulfilling life......

dunno what to say...cant tok them ard..sort of like no gan jue to such matters anymore..is this considered a closed matter?? totally dunno......

2006-03-10T00:39:00.000+08:00

troubling over so many things at the same time is really hellish.
things r getting frm bad to worst..m i to blame for it ?? starting to regret the things i did..haix. "when it cames , i didn grab hold of it.now begging for it to come back is of no use." Or maybe it didn start at all in the first place..am i just thinking too much agn..i really hope i do.i need a break..a long break...dun wanna see u..made me so pissed off..stressed up...i wanna quit..isolate myself at home for a month. start sch..went to study..forget everything abt u..i have fallen too deep into ur trap.......

not tt i m not happy or what..jus tt i didn smile in front of u..
ur presence stresses me.

toking abt work makes me puke. really wanna quit and disappear at this point of time..cant take it anymore.i admit i m weak...cant take failure..i m a sore loser..y do u all pin high hopes on me...i dun longed for tt red apron.i oni wan a happy jobbing life.tts all.as simple as tt.if jurong point needs ppl, i wanna transfer there...tts my hometown afterall..jss....

when things drag for too long..it will become rusty and eventually faulty..the same goes to relationships...

poly......SMA.....tts my future....

2006-02-27T13:06:00.000+08:00

becoming more stressed and tensed up during work nowadays..ever since e training last friday..my responsibility is getting bigger and bigger.... felt tt there will be a gap in between we two and the rest of dining staff..haix..how..?or am i just thinking too much..i hates thinking! can things be as it is now??..stressed..
mayb tts reality..gonna face it sooner or later..felt tt mum understands the situation i am in now and allows me to work during poly! yeah! but i promised her to score well in my poly...and i definitely gg to.!

watch asianbeat with fiona last sat..tts when i realised the other side of her.. she's real stressed up by the managers..cant see her smile tt often nowadays.. becoz of tt two words..y do they hve to b so strict wiv her....life's a torure for her in breeks ba...tts all i can say..but really do hope we all can continue working after the 4 mths..dun want any more to go...its a sad thing to say gdbye.. JiayOu! gUys!

ydae was e lunch fd-runner! yea! tts what i like! fd runner is so much fun than being host..coz can face food! but really pissed off wiv tt stoopid act big...
sometimes really feel like smashing him.dabian lor..fed up!but i lurve sending food..thnk tt lemsip max is a real strong medicine..it makes u sweet talk xP
then at nite..host aGn!! dreaded it!! but its a sun nite..better than sat nite.. opened charlie and closed it oni ard 9+..becoz of tt 7 peeps..but its okay as compared to the alpha..came ard 9 lor..piangx eh..sort of break down..but managed to keep alive..and i could say tt dining staff r v efficient..haha!closed alpha in 5 mins time! fabulous! heex.great teamwork! keep it up guys! then went off at 11..wiv some seoul gardens peeps..waliau..cum eat our waffles..hehx.

wonder if ydae what he said is true or not..whatever it is..i m still waiting..

2006-02-22T12:23:00.000+08:00

finally day off!! working full shift for a week le! i nv knew tt i would survive till todae! part timer pay but full timer schedule..dotx..not complaining or what..just tt i am really tired at times..need a break............hmm..shall update a long one fer today since so long didn update liaox..

first thing is my results! got a real shock when i received it loh..incredible 16 pts.. nv expect myself to get below 20 kaes...v contented le..at least i made a drastic improvement from 30 to 16..lolx. all thx to mr Lee..he rawks to e core! bet he's e best tr ever on earth..hehx..without him, i wouldn hve gt a 3 for both maths... appreciated him having patience in me..in believing me...wOa....and ms seeto! i actually passed my geog!!!!!!b4 siaa...i m a F9 type sia..hahax...hey..bet i shld go up and give a speech lor..lolx..and i misses 4/3..when will we be meeting agn?? i wonder when tt day will come..haix...4/3..my beloved class..nv to 4get u all...went thru weal and woe this two years...its really hard to sae gdbye...sobx

and my band peeps..misses my flt section...i gt no time to go back see u all!! sianx ah!!

tts all abt studies..now back to work..becuming another hongwei liaox..whole day long work nowadays..left alot of stuff haven clear up. i hate cleaning up! Yeah! will be training in bar in 2 weeks' time..is it a gd or a bad thing for me?? felt elated in e 1st place coz huimin will be joining me too..and also can learn more things ma.. y not have a try loh..but..have to settle a lot of stuff..hard to persuade my mother to allow me continue working during poly..and i m really very fan abt this thingy... its either i say i wanna quit now or to work on sat when sch reopens..hve to make up my mind b4 mdm ask..ahhhhh......why life has to fan over so many damn ass de stuff...pray hard tt my mother allow me to continue working...if not....dunno lah..shit sia...

really lurves working in breeks..wiv all my colleagues..all the ppl r lyk a big family ..except tt lia hajjar and aisha quit liaox..haix...although the time we spent together is v little..but its really a joy meeting u guys..hahax..

next week is payday!!!!muahahahahahaha....

2006-02-13T15:57:00.000+08:00

recreated my blog...this is my link.....